These were life experiences, which I could of allowed to mess my head up worst than it is, or use them to advantage, and gain pleasure during masturbation from them. I look back at humiliation and turned it from a never ending nightmare into an intense source of masturbation fantasies. From being ridiculed, humiliated by some fat and homely girl that dumped me as soon as she saw that I was undeveloped, I turned it into a major fantasy: almost in a girl I've spent a lot of time and money on, when sex is denied me at the final moment. At least I'm not down on a couch, talking to a psychiatrist about it, but rather I'm cleaning up the mess from a really good cum session.
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