big cock envy
 

I grew up with big cock envy. I knew at a very young age that my cock was much smaller than the other boys. I had hoped I was just a late bloomer and at some stage I would experience a big cock growth spurt but as time goes on, I realized that I would always be smaller than average. I remember being in the locker rooms and shower looking at the other boy?s cocks with envy. My close friends all had bigger cocks and often boast about how well they used it. A lot of the girls we knew and who we had sex with us all boast how big they were, but no one boast about me. I spent a lot of time trying to develop new techniques to please a woman, but I was still missing that vital piece of the equation. I remember various girlfriends cheating on me with other men. I remember in most cases knowing but not saying anything about it to them. I knew why they had to cheat, and I did not want to interfere with their pleasure. My first real experience with a big cock was at my first wife basement party that turned into an orgy. I watched as my 5 foot wife had sex with a 6?2 BBC. He must have been over 10 inches, girthy and he was drilling her hard and deep. For the next two weeks all I could ever think about was his cock and how great it looked inside her. She invited him over and allowed me to get up close and personal with it. I remember holding it and stroking it then putting it in her. it was fat and meaty. Licking her juicies from it made me cum.

Gee, Gr8 stuff and what more could you have asked for !? Holding it, stroking it, putting it in HER.! WOW...
When i was younger i was a cuck for Debbie M. and later Inez W. I never got the chance to get up close and personal with their gorgeous hung bulls. I considered myself fortunate to watch and wank in the corner or listen in the adjoining room. i would have loved to have fluffed them up and massaged their cocks into a waiting pussy.

Your ex-wife must have looked sexy getting her holes filled by those huge cocks. If I was there I'd probably be jerking off in the corner with my 4-inch dick.

Me too, definitely jerking off in the corner with my 1.5" micro erection !

Lately I've been particularly envious of guys with huge cocks, porn stars and just guys in general. I just picture how much pussy they must get simply by telling ladies how big they are. And those ladies telling their friends about that guy with a huge cock, and even more pussy for those guys.

A girl I dated in my early 20s told me how much she enjoyed big dicks and once had a guy with 10 inches. She asked me my size and I told her average, knowing full well I was well below average at 4 1/2 inches back then. We started fooling around in my car and I could tell she was disappointed in my size, though she was nice enough not to say anything about it. But I think it killed her mood and all we did was some mutual masturbation and oral on her (she declined to blow me, giving me some BS excuse about having a cold sore).

Anyway, while getting pussy for free is difficult for me with a tiny cock, at least I've accumulated enough money from decades of saving and investing to be able to pay working ladies for their services. It beats going pussy-free, which would really suck.

I use to masturbate a lot to women. Then I started masturbating a lot to women being fucked by men with huge cocks. Watching their pussy stretch around big cocks turn me on. Now I mostly masturbate to big cock with nice helmet heads, solo stroking, edging, oozing and cumming. Their eruptions turn me on and thinking about them erupting in my wife blow my mind.

Did your wife service a lot of big dicks before you got married. If so, have you ever masturbated or had sex with her while she told you about some of her past experiences?

Yes, my first wife had a very active sex life before and after we got married. She introduced me to different things and yes we talked a lot about he various experiences.